Your Word...

Someday I am going to write about everything happening in my life...to glorify the majesty of God...His awesomeness...His being a Heavenly Father...a God... Right now Chris is in his office, it's a very quiet Monday morning...everyone's on a day off...Chris is usually working on Mondays to edit... But this morning is extra different...it's his last Monday as a staff, Live Production Manager, in the ministry, in CCF, for now. Chris does not have to exit with his head up high. But he is leaving with a  heart after God,still. Nothing in this relationship will change except to go stronger, more dependent, deeper into God's safe embrace and protection. It is a Christian's  challenge to strive for perfection after God. We try daily. In the midst of trying, we trust too much, we  forget the earthly attitudes, presuming people around you have the same heart. However, even Within the Christian environment , hearts are not the same. Falling off guard, some dark motiva...

     The first time I noticed this kind of culture in this church's leadership was when I was pregnant with Topper. Chris and I were invited to have dinner with some music ministry leaders. The dinner went fine until the talk diverted to talks about the current music ministry head. There was a lot of fault finding going on. I was beginning to suspect that something bigger was about to happen. It did happen. The datenwas 9/11.      Being somewhat close to the head's family, this bomb came as a deadly blow to them. It was sudden, Chris and I were caught unaware. But obviously something was happening when one Sunday, during worship period, a commotion ensued. It was a quiet commotion, people were acting strangely, suddenly turning hostile towards us. From being friends with this family, the relationship turned sour. And until this day, I do not know why, was it something we did? said? Or was it something else they knew, that  we did not. I wonder if I...